Tuesday, April 21, 2009

quality time





It's all I have left really--a few precious days to spend with all the people I love in this amazing country---and so that is what I have been doing. In between selling off my furniture and trying to figure out how to fit 3 years into 2 suitcases and organizing files and leaving things in a good place for the person who will take my place, I have been spending every other spare moment with dear, dear friends. And I couldn't be happier.

Maybe I'm still in denial that I'm really leaving, but, in a way, maybe it's better I save the sadness for the other side... when I can no longer look into their eyes and hear their voices daily...when the daily commute no longer involves fruit stands and crazy ayudantes....when instead of endless trees and sunsets, skyscrapers fill my horizon...when I no longer speak Spanish for 6-10 hours a day...when I can no longer buy gallo pinto off the street, when the radio no longer plays bachata, when the fresh green mountains are much further away than a 3 hour bus ride...

When I am home, but maybe never really home again.

6 comments:

Sharon M said...

It really makes an impact on you, living overseas. Sometimes it's hard to feel "settled" when you get back to the US -- life is SOO different. Will be praying for you as you make the adjustment.

Hillery and Mike Cross said...

My parents had a hard time transitioning back to the US when they came home from Honduras. Even after a couple of years I think my dad would still prefer to be back in Honduras. I'll be praying for you as you start to adjust to the US. It's always hard to leave people you've grown close to and love, regardless of what country it is in.

Dawn said...

I see a lot of similarities between your experience and Jen's in El Salvador. She'll be a great encouragement to you when you return to Texas.

It will be hard, I don't think you should expect for (or even hope) otherwise. But you'll get through it, one day at a time. Your life is such a rich one. I celebrate these last days in Nica with you.

nicapamela said...

thanks for your comments and encouragement, friends!

Andrew J. Hill said...

Best wishes as you prepare to return...we are thinking about you and praying for you!

Andrea's Mom said...

Bye Pam...enjoyed your blog.I hope you find everything in life that you look for and best of luck and God's blessings in whatever you do.